So this week I did something a little different.
I’ve been feeling really down in the dumps lately and can’t seem to pull out of it. I am a firm believer in the power of positive thinking and usually when I get in these funks I can just take a moment to count all my blessings and pull right on out.
But over the past month or two I’ve just felt like I’m poisoned inside my head and no matter what I do I can’t shake this negative energy. I have been dealing with what I can only guess is anxiety, as in, there is a constant weight on my chest that makes me feel like something bad is going to happen or something is wrong. I also have felt extremely lonely. I attribute this to busy, conflicting schedules with Mitch and my friends. I exist within a strange paradox in my life–in my job, I live the life and hours of the bar, which means my typical work-week is Friday through Tuesday, 9pm-4am. However, my morals and extracurriculars no longer reflect that schedule and has become quite a bit more boring and traditional. So the people I now share common interest with tend to live in a Monday through Friday, 8am-5pm world. Because of that and Mitch’s new school schedule, I spend most of my days alone, only having personal interaction with people when I go into work and they are under the influence. Sometimes it gets a little depressing.
So with all that being said, I’ve just been down lately. I am firmly against prescription medications like anti-depressants and mood elevators, and refuse to go that route. (no offense to those who do take these, this is just my opinion and personal choice.) On a whim and also as a sort of last resort, I paid a visit to a local shop downtown that sells a lot of holistic items and also is home to it’s own ‘spiritual center’ where they conduct everything from tarot readings to yoga classes. On this particular day, they had a healer in the shop who was skilled in aura repair and balancing chakras.
Well…..why not. I decided to give it a whirl, even if I’m not a firm believer in all this stuff.
I will stop here and kind of explain my religious and spiritual beliefs. I usually do not speak about this sort of thing because I feel like your spiritual habits should be something personal for you and no one should be able to tell you you’re right or wrong. But in the interest of this blog making sense, I suppose I should just briefly fill you in on my line of thinking.
I am not a religious person, so much as I am spiritual. I believe there is a greater power out there, that there is a meaning to all this, this life, but I do not know what it is so I will not judge anyone on what THEY believe the meaning is. What I DO know, is that energy is tangible. You can use a device to measure the wavelength of my heartbeat, thus measuring my ENERGY. So for me, if that energy gets imbalanced or tainted from being around more bad energy than good, then that’s probably gonna throw me out of whack. And this is precisely why I decided to let a middle aged bald man in capri pants, covered in wiccan tattoos, conduct a chakra balance and aura repair on me.
(If you are unfamiliar with the term ‘chakra’ please familiarize yourself with the 7 basic chakras here . )
The reverend, ordained by the Church of Divine Light, was a very nice man, who spent no less than 45 minutes explaining his techniques to me, from the tools he was going to use, (everything from chimes and bells to oils and rocks and music.) to the placement of his hands so I could be as comfortable as possible. Considering that I’m no idiot, being in a closed room with an unfamiliar man who is attempting to put me in a meditative trance and perhaps touch my chakras, you can go ahead and guess that during this session I never fully let my guard down, as I was ready at a moments notice to issue a swift kick to the family jewels if he tried any funny business. After a lengthy introduction, I laid down on my back on a massage table. He then placed various precious gems, crystals and minerals around and on my body and turned on some soothing music. He then walked around my body with a bell and chanting a mantra while counting backward from 10, trying to guide me into a meditative state. After I was relaxed (somewhat) he then went into his own head, placing his hands on or several inches above various areas of my body.
Ok, I don’t wanna sound like a crazy person. But either this guy really has something going on as far as transferring energy, OR he just has a medical condition that makes his hands boiling hot. Because even at 6″ away from my body, I could feel the heat from his hands, like he was holding a space heater over me or something!
This went on for about 35 minutes before he slowly asked me to come back to the world of the living. For homework, he recommended I get a small bundle of sage and start smudging all the negative energy off of me every time I leave work. I left the building a skeptic, but only $25 poorer so I wasn’t too upset.
Cut to yesterday morning when I woke up. The first thing I noticed is that I was SORE. I have been at a stand-still in the gym for like 2 months and no matter what I do I can’t get sore. Before I went to my chakra balancing session, I had done the same glute workout I’ve done for the past 2 months so it was nothing new. But when I got out of bed I could hardly walk to the bathroom I was so sore. Also, my honey and I actually had some intimate times early that morning, which I could count on one hand the number of times that has happened. And overall I was just in a gee-golly terrific mood.
Now maybe this is all mental. Maybe the soreness is just a matter of coincidence. Or maybe there’s something to this energy thing. All I know is, I feel lighter, more positive. Work wasn’t an act of torture last night. So I’m gonna go back. Maybe take advantage of some yoga classes at my gym. I don’t see any harm in taking an hour of relaxation and reflection for myself each week. And if there is some positive benefits to this aura repair and chakra balancing, then all the better.
On that note, I hope you all have a blessed and wonderful weekend. And get out and try something new! You never know, it might just change your life.








